Random bits of randomness!

I am so sorry I haven't posted for a week or so! I have been racking my brain trying to decide what I wanted to blog about while I am waiting for my crazy week next week and I have been having a tough time! All I can think about is this Laparoscopy and I think it is causing a minor case of writer's block!

One thing I wanted to do was recommend some video blogs on youtube that you might want to check out! The first one is one I have been watching for a while, and has helped me a lot while going through this journey. The web address is http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCYv8VkKxvmfYIRbowQALwCw, and it follows the story of Jared and Ellie! Ellie has P.C.O.S which I had never really heard of until I watched her youtube channel, but this vlog was the one that made me really want to go to my doctor! While watching these two I realized that my problem could be easily fixed if I just went to my doctor and that I wouldn't know unless I was brave enough to try! I don't think they know who I am but if you check them out please tell them I sent you! One thing I loved about watching these guys is that they are local!! They live in Provo and I believe Ellie is from the Roy area so it was fun to watch them knowing they were right in my backyard! :) They have a cute baby boy now which I also loved! They had a happy little ending and it helps me believe I will too!

The other video blog I want to recommend is by Cullen and Katie! The link is http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCPYnVLuSSqX4KJ9vfup2FcQ. These guys are awesome and I love their accents! They are located in Alabama and have gone through 2 miscarriages! They are so sweet and positive and they have shown me that there are some amazingly strong resilient people out there! They are also pretty funny! They do daily vlogs and I have loved that they are real! They vlog on good days and bad no matter what, and I have loved that about them! They make you feel like they are your friends which is crazy that you can feel that way about strangers but it's also pretty cool!

These guys have kind of become my role models! I know they have touched thousands of lives and I am hoping in my journey I will be able to do that too! I don't claim to be an amazing writer, in fact I know I am definitely not an amazing writer, but I hope that I can touch other people's lives.

I never thought that I would struggle to get pregnant, I never worried about IF I would be a mom I always thought it would happen easily, but I am grateful for this trial.  I have truly become a stronger person through this experience and while there are still days I just want to stay in bed and cry, I know that I am still becoming stronger everyday.  I am so glad that I can share my story. I thought I was an open book before but I am finding now that I wasn't ha ha. Now I truly am an open book and while it is a little scary sharing such personal things with the world, I am so grateful for the experience. I have had so much support from you all and have been blown away with how safe and loved you all have made me feel.

Now comes to my plea! If you have anything you would like me to write about let me know! A lot of this past week has been me trying to guess what you all might want to hear and I don't want you to get bored with me so if you have a burning question just ask it! You can even do it anonymously through a blog comment on here so no one has to know it was you! :) I will be watching for questions!! Seriously..... just ask, just comment! :) If you check out those blogs let me know what you think and if you subscribe to them let them know I sent you! I will try to get another blog post in this weekend or next week before the laparoscopy! TTFN ~ Ta Ta For Now